So I guess it's been a while, huh. I've been good and I've been bad, I decided I should try and sort this blog out once and for all.
I don't want to gush out my life story, I'm too paranoid for that to happen, but fucking hell so much has happened since I started university, which by the way, fun fact - I moved into Aberystwyth on this day four years ago. It's scary, thinking back on everything, that's four years of my life down the drain, and it's scarier thinking that someone out there is going to go through a very similar experience to me. Like, I can't wrap my head around it, I'm scared for all of those people who are going to feel utterly alone and those people who are going to feel useless and suicidal and crap. But that's where I'm going to stop myself, I've already had a panic attack today - thinking back on that stuff does no one any good. My boys are rattling around and Chekov's watching me, we have a special connection and he's like an emotional support animal for me, bless him. I've been having full on panic attacks and he's completely calmed me down by cuddling up to my tummy. I applied for a job today, just an office admin/receptionist job, but still I'm proud of myself. It's nice having Michael offering encouragement from the sidelines, I never thought I'd be lucky enough to fall in love and be equally loved by a guy like him. Well I mean, that's the thing, there is no one else like him. He's perfect for me, beautiful and caring and everything I could ever need. I'm going to try and get better at this blog writing thing, maybe set up a recipe side to it because I've found that that really helps my anxiety. Anyway, peace.
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AuthorFrancesca, studied English & Creative Writing BA Hons. Gamer and poet. Socially anxious. ArchivesCategories |